This isn’t home

Gamefluently is more than a dream—it’s a path. I’ve been to Asia before, and I loved it. This is part of my journey back. I’ve chosen a destination, but I don’t just want to go. I know I’ll be an outsider, but I don’t want to be Other. I want to be part of the culture, part of the rhythm, part of something real. I don’t want to come back here.

A lot of people dream of being where I am. I get that. But I don’t want this anymore. I don’t belong here—I don’t even vibe here. Some of it might be paranoia, sure—but that doesn’t make it untrue. If I end up with a beach in the process? Great. In the meantime, I’m stumbling through Thai lessons and livestreams as a midlife crisis in progress. It’s not a little red convertible—it’s a full-system reboot.